I had another dr appt today, nothing crazy just a progesterone strip and some other hormone but I cant remember the name, and a consultation with my dr/re. I was initially very stressed about today becasue I was supposed to have my appt in BEAMONT! 2 1/2 hour drive one way, for a consultation because my dr was going to be out of town and they were booked with appt's today, I could see her tomorrow though. BUT I have work, and I am walking a thin line at work with this journey so I said no I cant do that. So I wasnt sure how long I was going to be at the dr, or if I was going to be able to speak to her at all, but even like my gyno, they know me by name now and call me hun and they got me in and out in 2 hours. My dr is a wonder women, she works in all these places and does such amazing work with all us women and I wonder sometimes how she even sleeps, she has a family of her own too, but she was willing to rush back to speak to me about my cycle. She gave me the "low down" on the "what-if's" and basically gave me a new cycle plan if I start my period. She repeated the stats of bens frozen specimen and my blood levels and said she was confident I would become pregnant but then she fully reminded me the risks I have, and the health issues im FULLY faced with. The things I didnt want to hear she said to me, which is what I need to understand if this doesnt happen, because unlike many women I have alot at stake and alot of hurdles to jump before this is rewarding. She repeated cancerous cells a few times, adheshions, tubal problems (which I had never heard before) that they are twisted along with one ovary, another ovary is enlarged from PCOS, wow right! Unicornate/half uterus with fibroids and adhesions... what exactly is an adhesion? She thru all these medical terms, paragraph long and said now you remember this when you see your period, you do have EXPLAINED infertility so dont ask why, it'll be ok, and here is our plan B, here are the new meds you will take and we will do this again. Most women dont get pregnant the first time being fully healthy, yes its heartbreaking but this is why YOUR a women, women are strong, and you are strong. So.... she made me feel bad and good at the same time, and thats also why shes wonder women. She IS worth the drive, just not to beaumont lol. I will know tomorrow if I have to do one more HCG shot, I am hoping that one was enough, but I am prepared to do one more. I really am... Im not as nervous becasue now I have 2 awful shots plus a bunch of other injections under my belt...but today I feel confident, I might not feel that way if I hear bad news. But I will do what I have to do if it means keeping this. I will not have my pregnancy test until next wed, a blood test, so I will know in ONE MORE WEEK what my fate is for now. THEN it will be 2 weeks from then around June 13th we will get our first untrasound and we will be able to see how many, but we are all very confident I only had one mature follicle on the left, and I had a semi on my right, but the adhesions would make it hard for those follicles to mature, or travel.
So Ben and I compiled another simple list...lol... of things we want/need for a new baby. Obviously we dont need a new crib or dresser, Graysons getting his big boy bed when Ben gets home with his matching furniture, from the cat and the hat. His bedroom set is 570, for everything even a matress so we are going to invest in that. So the big big big things are really taken care of, the new baby will get hand me downs!! Yay lol the new baby will have the dresser and crib set and then in a few years we will make a plan from there depending on the sex. But here we go this is the top things we are going to invest in early on... starting from ultrasound on.... (we are counting on just one baby so this is the plan for one baby) a baby monitor this time, we plan on moving the babies upstairs, together sometime so we are going to invest in a video monitor. Our original plan was a bassinet, but of course they come out with new things every year so we want a smaller play and play that has the diaper change add on AND the tiny baby bed attachment that can be rocked, all on a play and pack!! Its 150 so we are going to invest in that for the newborn stages. We are going to get a new swing, the one that goes around a half circle instead of the one we have that clicks. Of course we are going to give this baby a theme so we will invest in a theme for the room, bed set ect. A new breast pump, or at least new conectors to the one I have becasue I plan on breastfeeding as long as I can this time. We have all the other big items, plus bottles and blankets and toys. So our biggest thing is to start stocking up on diapers, wipes, formula. $50 a paycheck is so do-able and by the time the babies here it wont be such a burden. That means one big item a month, and $50 a paycheck. Some stuff we obviously cant buy if we dont know the sex, so that will also come later, I just havent fully decided if I am going find out the sex early or not. I want to make the MOST of this pregnancy, the best pregnancy, the most enjoyable expierence. So If there is only one baby we are going to try to not find out the gender, and if there are twins we WILL need and have to know the gender.
The stats: 12 dpo 11 dpiui, we should be able to know by now but I had to do a bosster hcg so it would give a false positive. No symptoms yet.. or whatever... just some of the usual. Temp this morning was 97.9 and it mostly is so I think thats a little low, the 98's are what I would like to see all the time... same cm which I am STILL assuming is from the meds I take. Same muscle pulling cramp on sides when I sneeze, cough, or move fast.. or move wrong... or move at alll! Maybe an increase in smell, but i dont notice is constantly just sometimes when its a bad smell to me. Stil in nesting phase as you can tell, but thats from the hcg shot for sure if I am not pregnant.lol Same meds estrace and progesterone. Dr appt one week from today and we will find out!!
I had another dr appt today, nothing crazy just a progesterone strip and some other hormone but I cant remember the name, and a consultation with my dr/re. I was initially very stressed about today becasue I was supposed to have my appt in BEAMONT! 2 1/2 hour drive one way, for a consultation because my dr was going to be out of town and they were booked with appt's today, I could see her tomorrow though. BUT I have work, and I am walking a thin line at work with this journey so I said no I cant do that. So I wasnt sure how long I was going to be at the dr, or if I was going to be able to speak to her at all, but even like my gyno, they know me by name now and call me hun and they got me in and out in 2 hours. My dr is a wonder women, she works in all these places and does such amazing work with all us women and I wonder sometimes how she even sleeps, she has a family of her own too, but she was willing to rush back to speak to me about my cycle. She gave me the "low down" on the "what-if's" and basically gave me a new cycle plan if I start my period. She repeated the stats of bens frozen specimen and my blood levels and said she was confident I would become pregnant but then she fully reminded me the risks I have, and the health issues im FULLY faced with. The things I didnt want to hear she said to me, which is what I need to understand if this doesnt happen, because unlike many women I have alot at stake and alot of hurdles to jump before this is rewarding. She repeated cancerous cells a few times, adheshions, tubal problems (which I had never heard before) that they are twisted along with one ovary, another ovary is enlarged from PCOS, wow right! Unicornate/half uterus with fibroids and adhesions... what exactly is an adhesion? She thru all these medical terms, paragraph long and said now you remember this when you see your period, you do have EXPLAINED infertility so dont ask why, it'll be ok, and here is our plan B, here are the new meds you will take and we will do this again. Most women dont get pregnant the first time being fully healthy, yes its heartbreaking but this is why YOUR a women, women are strong, and you are strong. So.... she made me feel bad and good at the same time, and thats also why shes wonder women. She IS worth the drive, just not to beaumont lol. I will know tomorrow if I have to do one more HCG shot, I am hoping that one was enough, but I am prepared to do one more. I really am... Im not as nervous becasue now I have 2 awful shots plus a bunch of other injections under my belt...but today I feel confident, I might not feel that way if I hear bad news. But I will do what I have to do if it means keeping this. I will not have my pregnancy test until next wed, a blood test, so I will know in ONE MORE WEEK what my fate is for now. THEN it will be 2 weeks from then around June 13th we will get our first untrasound and we will be able to see how many, but we are all very confident I only had one mature follicle on the left, and I had a semi on my right, but the adhesions would make it hard for those follicles to mature, or travel.
So Ben and I compiled another simple list...lol... of things we want/need for a new baby. Obviously we dont need a new crib or dresser, Graysons getting his big boy bed when Ben gets home with his matching furniture, from the cat and the hat. His bedroom set is 570, for everything even a matress so we are going to invest in that. So the big big big things are really taken care of, the new baby will get hand me downs!! Yay lol the new baby will have the dresser and crib set and then in a few years we will make a plan from there depending on the sex. But here we go this is the top things we are going to invest in early on... starting from ultrasound on.... (we are counting on just one baby so this is the plan for one baby) a baby monitor this time, we plan on moving the babies upstairs, together sometime so we are going to invest in a video monitor. Our original plan was a bassinet, but of course they come out with new things every year so we want a smaller play and play that has the diaper change add on AND the tiny baby bed attachment that can be rocked, all on a play and pack!! Its 150 so we are going to invest in that for the newborn stages. We are going to get a new swing, the one that goes around a half circle instead of the one we have that clicks. Of course we are going to give this baby a theme so we will invest in a theme for the room, bed set ect. A new breast pump, or at least new conectors to the one I have becasue I plan on breastfeeding as long as I can this time. We have all the other big items, plus bottles and blankets and toys. So our biggest thing is to start stocking up on diapers, wipes, formula. $50 a paycheck is so do-able and by the time the babies here it wont be such a burden. That means one big item a month, and $50 a paycheck. Some stuff we obviously cant buy if we dont know the sex, so that will also come later, I just havent fully decided if I am going find out the sex early or not. I want to make the MOST of this pregnancy, the best pregnancy, the most enjoyable expierence. So If there is only one baby we are going to try to not find out the gender, and if there are twins we WILL need and have to know the gender.
The stats: 12 dpo 11 dpiui, we should be able to know by now but I had to do a bosster hcg so it would give a false positive. No symptoms yet.. or whatever... just some of the usual. Temp this morning was 97.9 and it mostly is so I think thats a little low, the 98's are what I would like to see all the time... same cm which I am STILL assuming is from the meds I take. Same muscle pulling cramp on sides when I sneeze, cough, or move fast.. or move wrong... or move at alll! Maybe an increase in smell, but i dont notice is constantly just sometimes when its a bad smell to me. Stil in nesting phase as you can tell, but thats from the hcg shot for sure if I am not pregnant.lol Same meds estrace and progesterone. Dr appt one week from today and we will find out!!
